Friday, December 7, 2007

My Hope Deferred Revealed

Not long ago, I posted about a hope in my life that was at that time deferred. I wrestled with whether I should reveal the specific hope or not. When sharing with my Bible study girls about it, this verse immediately came to mind...

Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. (2 Corinthians 1:3 - 4)

So my prayer is that the Father of mercies and God of all comfort would bring comfort to your heart through the comfort I have received. Below is a letter I sent to friends and family earlier this week...

Friends and Family...

Two and a half weeks ago we found out we would be expecting our third child. We had decided to keep it between just a few of us until I told my Wednesday morning bible study group. The Tuesday night before I was to tell my bible study girls, I started to bleed and cramp. I saw my OB the next morning. She did a sonogram and found nothing. She said I was too early in the pregnancy to see anything. They took a blood test that morning to measure my hormone levels. I went in again two days later to have the same test done. If there was a significant increase in the levels, I would still be pregnant. If there was no change or a decrease, it would be likely that I had miscarried. This was somewhat torturous because I had to wait over the weekend. Finally, this morning, my doctor delivered the news that I indeed had miscarried.

Though this situation could have been so much more devastating, I have not escaped the effects of such a loss...even if it was an early loss. My emotions have been everywhere from hopeful to content to frustrated to just sad. However, the Lord has been so sweet in whispering His truth and promises in His Word. Two verses that have been especially meaningful have been 2 Corinthians 1:20 and Romans 8:28. 2 Corinthians 1:20 says "For all the promises of God find their Yes in Him. That is why it is through Him that we utter our Amen to God for His glory. Romans 8:28 says "And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose."

I realize that this is for His glory and our good. My soul utters an Amen (a "let it be") to Him for His glory in this. I am grateful that He uses everything...everything good and everything seemingly bad...to point us to a greater glory...His.

Thank you to all who have prayed with us and for us...to those who have sent us letters, flowers and food. Thank you.

We love you all,
Lauren for the Chandlers

24 comments:

Bezner said...

We love you guys. May God give you His peace, grace, patience, and love.

The Barnyard's said...

Sweet Lauren. I am so so sorry to hear about your loss. The pain of loosing our second child is so fresh that reading your words were like reading my own. My heart aches for you but I remember the beauty that the Lord revealed to me (us) during that time. It was the sweetest most painful season. I will be praying for you and your family. Asking the Lord to bring forth His beauty and purpose through it all. Bless you.

The Venables said...

Thank you for sharing your heart Lauren. I know this must be a difficult time for you.....please know that our prayers are with you and Matt as you seek God's purpose through this all. Much love my dear.
Addie

Amanda said...

Oh, sweet friend, I am so sorry to hear about this. My heart is broken for you. I will be praying for you!
Much love,
Amanda

Lindsay said...

So sorry to hear your news Lauren. I'll continue to pray for God's peace and His overwhelming presence over you as you grieve this little life. I've been where you are and was so thankful that when the questions and emotions got so overwhelming, I knew where to go, I knew where to stop, that the Lord was carrying me in His righteous hands.

David Campbell said...

Lauren,
I love that verse and felt the same way about a month ago. It is just not by chance that we went through this. I praise Him for His great comfort. I so agree with the comment above about our time being the "sweetest most painful season" we have gone through.
We have been praying for you and will continue to do so.
You are so loved.
Keri Campbell

The Rozell Family said...

Hey Lauren,
I am a friend of your mothers. I am so sorry about your miscarriage. So often we wonder why God does the things he does. For some reason this was all in his plan. I am thinking and praying for you today.

Emily Rozell

John and Natalee Warren said...

Hey girl, I am so sorry to hear! I will be lifting you up and pray that you continue to find truth, strength and comfort in Him!
And I am bummed I wasn't there Tuesday also! IT was my only night with nothing for the week so I opted to stay home. We'd love to hang out sometime though!

coneandmo said...

We are so sorry to hear of your loss. Just going through this ourselves, we know how devastating it can be. Cling to
God for comfort and peace. We are praying for you.
The Cones

The Durham's said...

Love you guys. Praying for you.

Gayla said...

Oh Lauren, I'm very sorry to hear of your loss. I have experienced a miscarriage myself, so I know what you must be feeling, and the verse you cited is absolute truth.

May God comfort you and Matt during this difficult time.

Ashie Nichole said...

I just wanted you to know I will praying for you and your family.
Love,
Ashley

Aina said...

Lauren...thanks for sharing such intimate news...may the Lord continue to comfort you and your family with His love and promises...and may your seasons of loss be a testimony for His glory. Love, Aina & Caleb

Amanda said...

That was extremely powerful Lauren. Thanks for sharing that with the masses. God has used your honesty. Blessings!

Jonathan, Andrea and Luke said...

hi honey, big hugs. I understand your heart and said a prayer early am. In Him, A

The Andujar's said...

Lauren- Thank you from those that see your life. You are absolutely right that God will use this for His Glory somehow, and I trust that you will find a place of rest in that. Thanks for being willing to be so honest.

sim said...

it truly is a mystery and that much more a miracle when a child is brought into this world.

so sorry.

Sunni at The Flying Mum said...

I'm so sorry for this heartache for y'all. We're praying for y'all, and giving you an AMEN for God working all things together for His good.

Melanie said...

Lauren,

You don't know me, but my husband and I used to go to The Village. We have some mutual friends, so I found your blog through their blogs. I know well what you and your family are going through...I have had 3 losses myself. It is a truly sad and sweet time. God has used my losses to comfort so many others who have gone through the same thing, and I know that He will do the same with you. I will pray for you that this will be a time of physical and spiritual healing. Thank you for your honesty and candor. You will touch many for the Lord.

Blessed be the name of the Lord!

Melanie Lee

Isaac, Kim & Landen said...

Thank you for sharing your heart. It is amazing to see how many lives have been touched through this post. We are praying that God would continue to whisper during this time.

Kelly said...

I'm so sorry for you loss. I've experience the same thing and it is difficult but that verse you shared it SO true.

Katie said...

sending you hugs and prayers

Becky Kiser said...

i will be praying for your family. thank you for being so vulnerable. you will never know how it will allow others to heal from similar situations. i will be praying for an overhwhelming sense of peace. you minister to me so much through your blog and we've never even met. thank you.

Melissa said...

love you Lauren! I'm sorry about this... But know that you're hope and treasure being In Him is very encouraging.