Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Overwhelmed

Thank you for the incredible prayers, words of encouragement, Scripture and such. My heart is truly lifted and the Prince of Peace is guarding it so sweetly. I feel so loved by Him even in the pain. I have read every word you have written at least once. I find great comfort in knowing there are so many brothers and sisters praying for us.

I decided to buy a small scrapbook to document our journey with Elijah. I started it today while the kids were at MDO. There's something about being creative...whether that's drawing, painting, writing, singing, music...that helps me process all that's in my heart. I feel there is a song somewhere deep down. I'm doing my best to hold still while the Lord draws it out.

We would appreciate your continued covering of prayer over our family. Matt has a full schedule these next couple of weeks. Please pray for the Lord's nearness to each of us. Thank you. You are loved and appreciated.

24 comments:

The Ice House said...

Lauren, Jamey and I have committed to pray for you and Matt. I have no idea what you're feeling but know that you're thought of often.
I say scrapbook away.
Creativity is an outlet of worship for me too in times of difficulty.

Last thing, I was at a conference called Together for the Gospel last week and Piper spoke some on the verses in 1 Thess.4:13 & 14 And Your blog reminds me of what Paul says in those verses because of your ability to cling to Christ during this time. Thanks for being such a godly example!
"But we do not want you to be uninformed, brethren, about those who are asleep, so that you will not grieve as do the rest who have no hope.
For if we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so God will bring with Him those who have fallen asleep in Jesus."

The Santos Family said...

Lauren - thank you for the encouraging comments on my blog regarding our own miscarriage. It is such a blessing to me when others share that our loss has helped them with their losses in any way. I pray the Lord will bless you and keep you during this time. From your comments, it seems you have many people praying for you. Praise God for that grace!

The Engelhardt 4 said...

You got it. Let me know if you need any help with your scrapbooking, I am more than happy to send you stuff if you are in need of it. Blessings and love.
Elizabeth

Kristyn said...

We will certainly be praying for His nearness and more for each of you! You've been so heavy on my heart...even in my dreams! ;)
See you tomorrow?

The Three Tenners said...

Lauren, I'll be praying for you and your family during this difficult time. I'm so sorry for your loss.

Lauren said...

oh, lauren, jack and i said a long prayer for you guys tonight. i'm so glad to see your peace right now. we also said a prayer for sweet little elijah.
he must have a fiery personality and important job in heaven for god to lay that name on you.
maybe my nathan can babysit him when jesus has to go to the grocery store or make a run for more diapers. i'll pass the idea on...
love you guys muchly.
lauren taylor

David Campbell said...

Lauren~
As you know, you are in my prayers. Thank you for returning the favor! And thank you for always pointing us to our true Hope, even when circumstances seem so far from hope. You are a blessing.

Love,
Keri

Lauren said...

Lauren,

I am one of your readers from Abilene, and I am also a Lauren. I just wanted to remind you of this very powerful thought that has brought me unspeakable peace:

The Lord will fight for you, you need only be still. I know that the Holy Spirit is constantly warring for you and Matt as you are being taken through this trial. This season may be just the instrument He uses to propel you to the next level of favor with Him. Be blessed as you wait upon the Lord. In Christ, Lauren C.

Julie said...

I have buried one child and miscarried two. I have been where you are now and I know the pain that in overwhelming and real. Thank you for sharing it through your posts. This verse was the one thing I coluld hold on to when I was falling apart.
"Then call on me when you are in trouble,
and I will rescue you,
and you will give me glory?"
Psalm 50:15
Only the Lord can rescue us when we are broken and He will take you through the brokenness into his supernatural healing.
Looking forward to seeing our children again makes Heaven all the more sweeter.
Take Care.

Bark said...

I love you so much! Let me know what I can do!

The Mays Family said...

I am so sorry for your loss. Your family are in our prayers during this time.

Anonymous said...

Dear Lauren,

We are praying for you in this time of grief and loss. You are now a Mom of 4, 2 on earth and 2 in heaven. I wanted to let you know of another Mom who I think can greatly encourage you through her blog. She has richly encouraged me.

http://www.conorbootheandgirls.blogspot.com/

Your sister in Christ,
Marcia

The Corsos said...

Lifting you & Matt up in prayer today. For nearness, comfort & strength that only He can provide.

Tigpan said...

Lauren,
Thank you for being willing to be transparent. You have no idea how you have inspired my life over the past 7 years and how God has worked through you and yours to change me.
I am praying for you and yours, protection and sweet covering, refreshing coolness in the midst of refining.
You are loved, Amanda

Kacy said...

that is a great idea. some people say that a miscarriage isn't a real baby, and that is a lie. document this child like you would audrey and reid. we are praying.
p.s. sorry for the lame comment i left the other day. i don't know what i was thinking.

said...

Lauren,

I am praying for you and Matt and your family. You have no idea how you and Matt's relationship changed my life. The breif snapshots of love, mercy and grace I have seen- that helped me to get out of a totally destructive relationship more then a year ago, allowing me to embark on the greatest love relationship of my life- first with The Lord and now with an amazing, godly man who makes me ache to know more of our Savior. I know I'm not alone when I say that your family is treasured and covered in prayer. :) I am so luck to be a part of an amazing church family!!!

God Bless,

Tania

Mar said...

Dear Lauren,

Continuing to intercede for you, asking the Lord to give you new mercies each morning. He has promised to do just that.
(Lamentations 3:22-24)

Because of Christ Alone,
Marcia

Shane, Steph, Adeline, Adam said...

I have read your words awhile back and never posted to let you know we are praying for you and your family right now. It is at times hard to process all of the emotions that come with losses and I just want you to know that in the midst of your transparency and honesty the Lord's glory is shining through. I think I am just getting a glimpse of the depth of that statement. The dopth of Paul's words that in his weakness He is strong. Thank you for living that out for us! Love you guys!

Lindsay said...

Hey Lauren - I've just been catching up with you and am so sorry to hear of your second loss. This hits so close to home for me. I lost 2 after having 2 perfectly uneventful pregnancies. I have a "Glory Babies" journal where I journal, kept all the cards, ultrasound pictures and emails I got during those times. It was very theraputic for me. I still go back to look at it and know that I will always treasure that little book that documented those precious lives. I'll be praying for peace for you, healing and protection for you and your sweet family.

Brittani's Holding Little Hands said...

Lauren,
I claimed this verse tonight for a friend of mine who is currently suffering a loss. As I prayed this for her, the Holy Spirit prompted me to claim it on your behalf, as well.

Through the heartfelt mercies of our God, God's sunrise will break in upon us, Shining on those in the darkness, those sitting in the shadow of death, Then showing us the way, one foot at a time, down the path of peace.-LUKE 1:78-79

Jennifer Barton said...

Hey, I do not know you, but we have mutual friends. I want to let you know how sorry I am about your loss. I myself experienced two miscarriages before the birth of my two children. The process is so painful. My husband wrote a song about it, and the joy it will be when we get to see and hold those babies! I would love for you to hear it. It was very healing and comforting for me to listen to when I was finally able to. Scrapbooking is a great idea! We planted a tree, and although we don't live in that house anymore I pass by sometimes, and the tree is HUGE now! Let me know if you would like the song. Angie B knows how to get in touch with us. Hope this isn't too weird for me to be commenting on your blog. I was just stopping in from Barkley's blog, and I thought I would say hey, and let you know that someone else knows your pain! You are in my thoughts today!

The Shaffers said...

We've never met, but we pray for your family. Don't have to meet someone for them to be apart of your community. I pray we bloggers can be a speck of the blessing that your family is to ours. You are prayed for and loved! God Bless you!

thosetonnes said...

Matt and I will definitely be praying for you guys. I am reminded that the Lord does everything to glorify His name. I don't know the pain you feel, but know that you are loved and will be prayed for often. I just know that the Lord will use this for His great name. And little Elijah is with him. Thank you for sharing this very hard thing with us. Scrapbook away!

Maggie said...

I understand how you feel. God was gracious enough to give him to you, and let you see his little heart beat, and you want something tangible to commemorate his short life. We lost our first baby at 11 weeks. The only ultrasound image was taken after the baby died, so we didn't keep it. However, we had our portraits taken not long after I learned I was pregnant. I recall my pants fitting snugly at the photo shoot :-). I cherish that portrait of me and my husband (also Matt). When other people look at it, they see the two of us. When I look at it, I see three. And while his existance was shortlived, that child forever changed my walk with Christ, propelling me toward Him in a way that I'm not sure would have happened without him entering, then leaving my life.