Monday, September 3, 2007

A Heavy Heart

At 4:30 this morning, when I would normally roll over, sink deeper into our pillow-top mattress and fall back asleep to the rhythm of my sweet husband's soft breathing, I kissed my sweet husband good-bye. As of now...7:25 p.m....he's probably somewhere over Siberia. I won't touch his handsome face until the 13th. So, my heart is heavy.

I never realize how tightly clenched my fist can be over the things I love until those things are even slightly threatened. Though I know God is good and worthy of my trust. And, though I know He is better than my husband, better than my children, better than my life. It's still hard. It still aches.

Lord, I trust You, for You are good.

7 comments:

Kristyn said...

hey! praying for their trip and families missing their husbands & daddy's in the meantime! Let's get together...do a playdate or something? :)

Brittani's Holding Little Hands said...

Praying for God's peace to wrap around your heart tightly.

olivia and henry said...

hey lauren, i will be praying for you!!! we move into our house on thursday...if you are up for coming to dallas anytime soon, let me know! we'd love to have you and the kids over for a playdate! ;) thank you for sharing your "heavy heart"...i'll definitely pray for you all.

Debra said...

It is so hard when the hubbs is away. I will pray for comfort and for time to fly by.

Amanda said...

I will pray for you!

Josh, Nat, & Lily Pat said...

oh friend, i feel your pain! such a mix of emotions. joy knowing they are being obedient and seeing firsthand how God is working on the other side of the world, but heartache knowing they're not coming home at the end of the day...at least til next week! can't wait to hang out tomorrow...

Liz said...

lauren
i can definitely feel your pain...rob is off again tomorrow.
(and heading to dallas as you know!)
i will pray for you when i'm praying for my own family.
i can't stand for rob to be gone.
it never seems to get easier...
hope you guys have fun tomorrow!
blessings!